Bumps in the road

It's funny how a quote pops up at a time in your life when you need it most. I have a beautiful relationship with my boyfriend, Tim, but the last two weeks have been far from perfect. We have fought about every little thing and disagree more often than not. Sometimes I feel like it isn't a beautiful relationship and that it's never going to get better, but deep in my heart I know we are going to fight from time to time, and that's okay. It's okay to disagree, as long as you work it out in the end. We've learned that we have to talk through every argument we have, and I guess in a sense that's a beautiful part of our relationship. We're both lucky enough to have someone that will talk through an argument even though we're mad. My theory now is to never leave mad and I think we've stuck to that pretty well. We make a point to tell one another when something makes us mad or upset, and we talk through it together instead of hiding it. 

We both still have a lot of changing and growing to do when it comes to our relationship, but I feel like we are going to make it. I feel like the "far from perfect" times are only going to make us stronger and our good times even better. 

Our relationship is one of the most beautiful things that has happened to me in my life and I realize it is never going to be truly perfect. I realize were going to have ups and downs, and times when the bad outweighs the good, but that doesn't make it any less beautiful. Love is truly a beautiful thing and although it may not be perfect, it's definitely worth it and I wouldn't change it for the world. 

Until next time,

Kelsey 

Let it be

It's hard to believe that at this time last year I was planning to move to Nashville, Tennessee. I was not necessarily completely unhappy with my life here, in Illinois, but I was ready for a change in my life and I didn't feel like I had anything here that I couldn't leave behind.  I was willing to pack up everything and move for the summer to a place I knew no one, with my best friend along side of me. I wanted to experience new things, meet new people, live on my own, and maybe even find the place I belonged. Moving to Nashville didn't happen last summer, and I know now there's reasons it didn't. So much has changed since then and it's weird to think just a year later I can't imagine packing up and moving somewhere just for the heck of it. I can't imagine leaving the people here behind. My life has changed so much that now that I'm so happy here, I don't feel the need to get out of here anymore.

I'm not super religious by any means, but I know God didn't let moving to Nashville last summer happen for a reason. I had an AMAZING summer staying in Illinois and none of it would have happened if I would have moved. Maybe I would have had an amazing summer there too, but maybe it just wasn't the right thing for me. I can't help but think of the what ifs in this situation.  What if I would have moved there and not wanted to leave?  What if I would have stayed there and spent the rest of my life there?  But the biggest what if is what if I wouldn't have come back and would have never gotten the chance at the relationship I'm in now?  Back then I thought moving was the best idea ever, but I'm glad God works in mysterious ways.  I will say, I was completely devastated when the move didn't happen, but now that I see why it didn't and see how great my life is now, I'm sort of glad it didn't happen.

I'm not saying living in Nashville would have been bad, I just know now it wasn't right for me.  I think it's a place that's meant for me to visit, not live, and I'm completely okay with that.  I'm learning to go with the flow, because after all, whats meant to be will be. <3

Until next time, 

Kelsey